ron & hong

senseless it may seem... senseless it may be... stupid others may think... dumb others may feel... but, at least, i know that for the first 9 mths this yr, i didn't waste my time... happiness is all i gathered... and, i hope there can be another time... weeeee~

somehow.. somewhat.. somewhere.. something.. makes me dream.. dream of what others would say, "silly" like what i kept telling others.. "日有所失 , 夜有所梦"

how have u been... ? really wanna know... but, where can i go for the answer.. ? i really dun know...

刻骨【kègǔ】 deeply ingrained; deep-rooted. 铭【míng】 inscription; engrave. 心【xīn】 the heart; heart; mind; feeling; intention; centre; core. 刻骨铭心

hmmm.. actually, there is a topic of talk-point which my bunk mates and i have been discussing.. quite long ago.. but, recently, while bathing, i thought of it again.. how much shld one put into a relationship? well.. there were split answers... one would say, "Silly! of course 100% la! if not, why go into the relationship when you are not committed at all!?" while others say, "Stupid! Give 100% for what?! in the end, you will be the only dumb ass in the world to get hurt from it!" really really... truly truly.. which one is then the right answer.. ? very pondering, isn't it.. ? for one who have yet to go into a relationship, maybe the first statement suits u more.. but, for those who have got hurt once or too many times from relationship, probably, the second statement means much more to you.. 对不对？

how irony... fancy thinking of the past during one of the night in field camp.. maybe, my sub-conscious just cant stop thinking of it ba.. personally, i dun mind thinking of it either.. but, what i dread is the after-effects of it... slowly, but surely, it affects my mood.. which it eventually did.. *trying my best to put things down... even if it means changing myself to another person of different personality...*

decided at this very moment.. i will restrict myself from entering your blog.. i will try to forget about the past.. i promise.. :) but, this blog will still be around.. whenever i have things to say abt the past, it will be here.. just simply here.. may happiness be always with you.. :)

yeap.. always the same old pattern.. doing the last minute things.. hahaa.. anyway, suddenly feel like posting this blog entry.. yup.. just feel like doing it only.. with no other intentions in mind.. as stated on my blog.. went to the budget terminal this morning.. went there early.. and sat at the seats waiting for daniel and gw to arrive.. then, i realise.. there were so many couples around me at that point of time.. waiting for their flight.. hmmm.. the sight of it reminds me of our planned but failed to execute holiday trip.. hai.. how nice if it could materialise.. isnt it.. oh well.. just hope tat one such day will happen ba.. :) other than tat, no other things le.. *wEeeEe...* book in liao........... H-A-I-Z....

the truth is always tat devastating..

i miss the way you speak to me.. i miss the way you listen to me.. i miss the way you button up my shirt.. i miss the way you hug me.. i miss the way you hold my hands.. i miss the way you cuddle yourself to me.. i miss the way you throw tautrums.. i miss the way you do up the puzzle.. i miss the way you msg me.. i miss the way you try to get things done.. i miss the way you give me the cards.. ultimately, i just miss you...

i am staying on... and on... and on... till the day comes to... anyway, wonder how things are for u now... remember the last promise u make to me.. ok?

i didn't know my love for you have become hurt to u.. i m sorry.. i really truely am..

Im sorry... things changes alot... and i know im selfish... but i really cannot take the stress that i was having then. I like it know where by there is no stress.... feel to do and say waht ever i want. Need not worry too much as to, will what i do affect u? how will u feel? People keep telling me guys in ns will sure to feel insecure but the insecurity is giving me so much pressure... when feel started everything was beautiful. Its fun. and enjoyable... no stress, u believe in me and i believe in you. Those passionate moments.. but everything changes after you went bmt... even when i say that im at work, u seems to doubt in me... Slowly those doubts kills the passion. And that makes being with you seems more like routine then love... I really cannot take pressure and stress.... Im sorry.... I also thought we could last till 7 years as promise... but things dun always go our way isnt it? Im sorry.

things do change... but, i have always stayed the same.. only for you...

trust me.. i am doing my best le... doing my best to make u feel being loved... and, be the happiest person in the world.. dun give up on me.. ok.. ?

hmmm.. one more day.. and, it will be our half year anniversary, dear!!! so looking forward to it.. hope it is going to be a memorable and lovely day for both of us.. anyway, saw you earlier.. really heartache.. seeing you feeling so stressed up over work.. and, definately, you overworked! wanted to talk to you on the way.. but, u fell aslp throughout the whole journey.. but, never mind! will be able to do so tomorrow.. another thing.. i feel that we have recently drifted slightly apart from each other.. no longer as close as we were during the past.. don't know if it is just me or what.. maybe i m wrong.. which i hope i m.. everytime i book in, i always think about what we can do during my book out.. and, think of the good and nice time we going to have.. that is what which have motivated me throughout my 2mths in camp.. i really do hope that this can continue for a very very long time.. hopefully till the day i do not open my eyes again.. *touch wood* dear.. whatever the case, i

Dear, i dun have alot to say... but i wanna say i miss you... but i will be strong and take care of myself de... so dun worry ok? MISS YOU... MUACK....

It has been quite some time since i wrote an entry... all entry is written by dear... haiz... dear i know life in army isnt easy... and because u r sick, u tend to be more yan ou... but i believe that all this will go soon.. but make sure it dun go too far hor... else it means u love me no more... sob.... dear... jus remember and trust me that i can take care of myself ok? and i'll always support u de.... i'll also miss u de... dun worry bout me ok? my silly boi.. hehe... Love you dear.... btw the pilot test jus go for it if u like it... if u dun like it then give up de.... no matter wat is ur decision, i'll always support u de.... Im supporting u all the way... cos im ur gf ma... hehe.... LOVE YOU, DARLING....

i know.. my dear will just simply comment me as being silly whenever i say all these things.. but still, i wish to say them all out.. everytime when i gotta let go of u and book in, i really feel a sense of loss.. maybe coz for the past few days when i m out, i was too attached to u le.. may it be just slping beside u.. or watching u do ur things, it will feels good to know that you are just around me.. dear dear.. plz do take care of urself, k.. ? don't always overwork.. do frequent OTs.. really make me worry abt u.. and, try to lessen ur SMS usage bah.. although i know there are alot of pple msging u.. hai.. dun know what i trying to say also.. contradict myself... that is the only best thing i know how to do.........................................................

dear... every night when i m at tekong.. i will at least spend some time thinking of you... thinking of what you doing at the moment.. whether you had enough of rest.. did u had ur meal.. and, ur safety, etc.. how much i wish i could at least spark a conversation with you during my phone calls to u.. but, it always ended up in a haste hang up.. either you are going to work.. or, i got something to do... hai.. like, how i mentioned.. during the night is the time which i always hope upon.. not coz i can get to rest.. coz i can at least have a chance to talk to u.. really miss u alot when i m away.. hope u could bear the "silly dear", which you always call me, for the time being.. i will slowly get use to it and, won't depend so emotionally on you.. releasing stress and tension off your shoulder.. love you, my dear... *huGz* *muaCkz*

dear... I MISS YOU!!! :<

dear... this few weeks, it must be pretty hard for you... having some problems with ur work... and still, got to take my stupid and lousy attitude... it must be very unbearable for you... anyway, sorry tat i can't be around for you when u needed me... i hope things will be fine as time goes by... ultimately, you are still the one i want........... *huGz*

today i sent dear to tekong... he book in for the first day... then can bring 5 person in... im in la... haiz... its 2 weeks before he can book out... so we going to be seperated like wat happened in india... i hope think goes out ok for the both of us... dear, its a test for us... im sure we can over come it de... i miss u...

this posting, just photos! nothing else! :D welcome to our haven! :P a couple photo first! boy acting like a stone elephant! dear with stone elephant too! dear slping with stone elephant and not me!!! :< fierce kangaroo! come! lets have some boxing matches.. :P size of a kangaroo young! slpy panther on the log! :D ugly pigs.. :X are these animals searching for gold in each other's butt?? *sCratCh heaD* interesting zoo sign board!!! sign board in portrait shot! :D eee... white tiger... *roar*... oops.. shld be.. *meOw* :P seeing zebras doesn't really mean crossing the road.. :D tiger pounding on me!!! help!!! :X the only white horse ard... dear with white horse... me with the white horse!!! leonard lim? :X dear dear with goat! shall end with this photo.. me and dear again~ :) weeeeeeheeeeeeeeeeeee... ;)

dear dear.. for the past few dayz, it has been quite sometime for us... having quarrel session... talking about what will happen if our relationship collapse.. these are some typical situations which will occur during our relationship.. therefore, i hope it won't, in any ways, affect our relationship at all... but, in any case, i just want to tell you, i really do love you... love you so much... that, i am confident that such things will not happen during our time together... lastly, like what we have always been doing... trying to curb each other's temper.. hopefully you won't get affected when i try to curb urs... ok? must be tolerant to bf.. k? *muaCkz* *huGz* =)

"You are the colours of my life... you brought rainbow after a stormy day..." love ya... ;)

time sure fly past so fast.... and we have been together for months liao... say long nt long say short nt short... but watever it is... dear, im happy u r there.... thank you dear.... =)

dear.. thanks for spending time with me during my birthday... it was very nice, indeed.. i have calculated the time we have had spent together during that day.. it sums up to about 16hours 34mins.. thats what i could remember.. ;) even though close to half the time together was spent sleeping.. hahaha.. but, like i said.. what i wanna do is to see u as the first person of the day.. :) i will continue updating later... gotta be a stupid computer technicial now... :<

dear dear, i admit that since im back, we hasnt been that loving s in like when i was chennai... no~!~ as in msg la.... the rest is still ok.... we still is the best match.... i think.... i may not say sweet stuff... i may not msg u like i did... but u must understand.... no matter where i was... what i doing... i gt msg u or not.... im still missing u... and u r still the one i love.... dear, i love you.... a promise is a promise..... And i promise....

dear.. like what u have said in your previous entry.. things have been abit of tipsy topsy recently for the both of us... especially me.. having the frequent mood swings during the nights... but, as i have told you.. i just simply care too much about you and your thinking.. it might sound abit crazy... but, whenever you tell me about the matter(your friend..) which have lingered around us recently.. i really feel the dip of mood to the rock bottom.. i really have this sense of feeling whereby i feel i must react to this situation.. and you added, "at least you will not be going to malaysia.." i am really shocked to hear this statement.. in my mind, i kept telling myself.. i must try to take it easy.. with all the trust i have in you, it should be an easy task to do so.. coz, i really do trust you.. but, somehow, i just have this sense of being afraid that things will happen if i don't react to it.. like, i have always said, that you are simply just a "pillar" in

dear, i understand that recently u have many uncertainty in you cos of someone... dear dear, dun think so much... u are not going to loss me.... i promise... i already promise you the other day le... but u told me to wait till ur bdae then reply... alrite, i shall wait... but still, my feelings dun change, i love you dear... due to my job, i pretty left u out... sorry dear.... i'll make up for the time we loss k? about the pop of question.. hehe... scared me sia... shocked me... but dear, watever it is... i love you... although i keep asking u to pop the question but in actual fact no matter if u pop the question or not, i'll still cont to be ur gf de.... =) and it'll cont all the way.... for the simpliest reason, and that is "I LOVE YOU"

dear.. you remember the question i asked you the night before... ??? well, i definitely hope that a positive answer will be given... but, like what i have said, please remember... a promise is a promise... :) *muaCkz*

just dropping by to tell you, i love you, my dear! 3rd day into the official asking from me... wanna hear how you feel abt it... but, guess my answer will gonna take pretty long to be answered... coz of your work commitments... :) *huGz*

a big thanks to my dear! whom took care of me during my sick days... you asked me if i want to listen to the sweet words... the answer is yes... you know.. your dear is always greedy de... =P last but not least.. i miss you! :)

wat i wish for: - wish we'll last forever.... - wish for eternity between us... actually i jus wish for u being there for me.... u r all that i ever wish for... dear, sorry for messaging u that way.... perhaps i mean it.... perhaps i dun... but it dun matters.... cos all that matters is that... dear, i love you... muackz~!!~

i hope things are going fine with u, dear... don't really know whats happening... which make u msged me with such a statement... but still, like what i stated earlier.. hope that things are turning fine... well, another thing i like to mention... thanks for the cooking.. it was really very nice of you.. really appreciate it... its the first time any ger, besides my family members, make an actual meal for me... and, yes... you are the first.. :) love you, my dear... *huGz* *muaCkz*

finally im here to update this heaven of ours liao... hehe... i havent abandon it.... jus that i've been very bz ma... bz with wat? dear all my time is almost spend on u leh... hw do i spend time with the heaven.??? hehe... been spending most of my time with u after im back from chennai... catching all the time that we miss then.... dear, of course i know how u feel when u were out of town la... cos i feel the same ma.... i know both of us feels the same... the feeling is mutual de.... muackz... love you dear... suddenly im lost.... lost of words... =) all i really wanna say is "I LOVE YOU" muackz....

here is some pictures to share! the food we ordered during our trip to chomp chomp! alot, right?! hai... but, we manage to finish EVERYTHING!!! :) my greedy darling, enjoying her food.. ;) tats all for now.. :)

it has been some time since i last updated this blog.. anyway, for the last few days when i was outta town, i really missed you alot, my dear.. even though i don't really say it out, but still, i hope you know how i feel deep inside me... :) well, been enjoying the days i spent with you before my trip.. it was really really nice to be with you.. *huGz* *muaCkz*

im finally back... how i feel? well, alot leh... when i reach airport, havent seen u... i was feeling excited yet worried... then, after that saw u... my mind jus went blank... i dunno wat to do... felt lost... then we tok... felt relieved... at least things is going right... =) then we went off together... then went u first hug me.... im shocked... i dunno wat top react... only can say, "thz dear... The hus jus makes everything rite...." all the hugs n kisses jus came, and it makes me feel jus so pampered... and dear all i wanna say is: "I love you" our official date? hmm... things jus so nice... well... although at the later part of the night, things went abit wrong, and im upset... but after all... things is still so ok... rite? dear, i dun regret wat ever i do with u de... cos i love u... *~ muackz ~*

yeah! finally.. the wait has been over.. i wonder how u felt during the day we first met after close to 2 mths.. how did it felt? good or bad? wanna tell me more? ;)

now here in chennai is 3.42pm... sg is 6.12pm... by this time tml i should be back in sg... maybe it should be the time that we jus met after so long... hahaha... seriously im very anxious.... anxious... haiz plus abit of worry lor... worry tat when i back, what will happen.. haiz.. but dear, im trying the curb the worry... trying very hard le... still i cant wait to go back and be in ur arms... i know the time is slower and slower as the time is nearer and nearer to my return... but please please try to bare with it ok? work hard for jus 1 more day... jus 1 more day..... ok? cant bare also have to bare with it ok? jiayou... muack... dear, i love you... =)

today, my dear forgot to bring her handphone to work... well... or should i say, handphones... hahaha... happened to me twice in India... so, yup... excuseable... errr... just dropped by to say i miss her.. tats all.. :)

its just emotional dependence on u, dear.. :) as for the rest, i m still independet enuff.. heehee.. anyway, feeling much better lately.. oh well, nice to hear that you are all my!!! as per usual, the greedy me.. hahaha.. in 2 days time, u will be back home at Singapore.. so, yup.. dun care abt those people in India.. *huGz* *muaCkz* miss ya...! ;)

my dear, those changes doesnt seem too good wor.... i think its best u changed them back wor.... if u so rely on me and not independent? then hu is going to take care of me? well.... i need a independent n reliable dear leh... so far, u have done a good job of it leh... and thats wat makes me love u so........ so dun change ok? dun change ur love for me (unless its for the better).... dun stop loving me... dun forget me... dun ever leave me behind........ dun stop caring for me......... dun reject my love for u.... alot of duns...... do carry on loving me... do carry on letting me love u... do pamper me the way u pamper me now... do rem me.... do care for me always... do stay with forever no matter in the sense of emotionally or phsyically... dear, i jus love u so much... let jus jiayou for 3 more days ok? i know its hard... but tolerate for jus a while more... im jus feeling the same way as u r too... i'll be back soon... back in ur arms... =) and im urs... only urs ok? muack...

ever since we are together, dear.. i realise tat i have lost something very important... and, the thing is... my independence... now that we are together, i must confess that i rely alot on u in terms of emotions.. every now and then, i will definitely have mood swings... swings which can only be cured by your presense... *huGz* as i have always said.. been waiting for your return... so that, my "medicine" will always be with me.. another thing, like i mentioned yesterday night.. though i have waited for more than a month le.. the last few days of ur stay in Chennai sure makes me feel that i m waiting for a year or so... hai!!! faster pass!!! *muaCkz*

wat will u do if u have a emotional boyfriend? i really dunno.... yest, dear dear is feeling lousy again... im so sad... cos i like cannot help him and make him feel better... which means, when he feels down, im also down... sorry dear, im unless lor... cannot cheer u up... i think u know slping ba.... yest slp so late.... kip thinking of things... hmm... dear, sorry... yest notti... kip teasing u.... i know i know, u dun like me to tease u with our relationship... sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry.... dui bu qi.... im jus notti... i'll try extra hard not to tease u about that ok... i tease u with our relationship doesnt mean that i dun care about relationship... jus that... im being plain notti... u must believe and trust me k? i love u....

here to put my foothold of the haven between the two of us! i do not have many things to describe over this ger of my... during times, she can be really cute... very blur... but, other times, she can be real mean.. conclusion, she is definitely one woman who brings me to the ups and downs of life... w/o much sweet talk.. just wanna let u know.. u r so lovely.. and, i love you so.. :)

woooo..... the offical entry for ron&hong~!!~ heeeeeeeee........ dear dear, like this blog??? this is a gift that i have for u for our 1st month... haha... surprise? well.... dear, i love you.... how should i start... hmm, from our first meeting ba... haha.... we met In a country that none of us is familiar with... India.... You were there to fetch us from the airport... well... first impression? haha, i told u before.... bad impression~!~!~ haha... - a bit girlish with the blue spec - one tat i'll not like... (as in be my bf, but well im wrong) - sexist.... (look down on gals, hey~!!~ i about to got thru with India liao too hor... ) - MCP very bad rite? well... at least u left a impression rite? haha... but within jus a short short 1 week... my impression, changed alot... really alot.. - very man (certain extent la, haha) - very caring, very detailed, very concerned - very responsible - can be very boi boi at time (so cute, haha) - very naggy.... (noisy~) - still MCP (some