ron & hong

day in day out.. day passed day comes.. people just simply ask.. what is tat nice or why cant i let go.. ? and there, i question myself too.. but, to no avail.. as time goes by, i started to realise.. i need to let go.. to lease a new life for you in me.. and that, shall be what must be done..

i will fulfill this last big promise i make.. i will try my very best to do it.. and, make it a reality..

i do not want ur glamorous past.. i just want your facsinating future.. your future with me.. ? i hope i could paint it with outstanding colours.. so that it will become de factor for you to remember..

A lost love is still love.. I may not be able to be there for you when you feel happy or even sad.. But, when one sense weaken, another heightens.. and, that is Memory.. Memory soon became my only partner.. I learnt how to nurture it, treasure it.. and hold it.. And, for that, i am glad that memories will never forsake me..

why.. ? why do i have to always reminisce with the past.. ? why cant i let go.. ? why cant i just forget.. ? why cant i just accept the reality ? why cant i just move forward.. ? why cant i just carry on with my own life ? why cant i just sit down and properly think of what i should do.. ? why cant i just promise myself what i have promised? why cant i just fake myself to be a happier person.. ? why cant i just dun be myself.. ? is it very difficult to be who i m now.. ? is it very difficult to let me know whats going on.. ? is it very difficult to live the life you are leading now.. ? i just want you to be happy.. as simple as that.. people always think that i still harbour thoughts which i shldnt.. the truth is, no.. i no longer have those thoughts.. i just want to help you paint your world the way you want it to be.. may it be for the better.. or worse, i just want to be of some help.. especially what is happening now.. hai.. guess i cant even stand afar to see ur well being.. yes..

ever thought, why a person can refuse to do things he is being asked to? ever thought, why a person just simply doesnt want to forget? ever thought, why a person could simply do things which will hurt himself? ever thought, why a person cherish every little thing which he have done together with her? ever thought, why a person is just being so stubborn? ever thought, why a person reluntance to accept a new life? to me, all these are nothing but just an illusion.. and yet, i allow myself to go on deceiving on...